
30 weeks!

Baby boy Drew's sweet little face at 29 weeks
Today I am 30 weeks pregnant! Ever since I had the cerclage done (at 19 weeks) I have had certain milestones in the pregnancy that I have hoped to achieve. Reaching 30 weeks was one of the them! Certainly, it is still too early for the baby to arrive but every week is better than before in terms of survivability. I have done nothing but worry about absolutely everything since I had the "incompetent cervix" diagnosis back in June. My OB/GYN at the time only made my worries worse and just made me a complete basket case. Of course my number one priority is a healthy baby but I would also like to be able to finish school in December as well. My doctor was not being very supportive of that and threatened every week to put me on complete bed rest. I made the decision to switch from my regular doctor to the high-risk OB's since I had to see them occasionally anways. At my first visit with them as a full-time patient, I instantly felt better and they were extremely reassuring of my status and the ability to carry full term. Of course, I know this means to continue to be careful with activities, etc but at least no bed rest at the moment.
So anyways, this past week and today at church I have just been so thankful to the Lord for allowing me to make it this far. I truly believe the Lord is teaching me a huge lesson through all of this. I cannot plan everything!! When I first found out I was pregnant, I made the assumption that I would have no problems and could handle being a mother, wife, student and mom-to-be all at once. I even thought I could handle a small little part time job too. Everything in this pregnancy has been different from when I was pregnant with Madelyn and all that I had "planned" has now been changed and is now up in the air! Now I know that God is still in control of everything and He decides how much we can handle.
We had the best service today at church and I was just so thankful that the Lord has allowed me to make it to 30 weeks! One song we sang today was "In Christ Alone" (if you have your speakers turned up you will hear it!) and I was just reminded that we cannot do anything without Christ alone. This is such a great song and really just speaks to your heart. I cannot even sing it at church without completely breaking down! I am so thankful for all of my friends and family who have been praying for this little baby!! Thank you God.